2002-11-16 - 9:25 p.m.
I forget.
Acccording to the thingee when I sign on, I haven't posted for a month. And it's been a long month.
To continue the theme of the sky ...
I went to Portland for business. My first business trip. I hadn't been looking forward to it, had convinced myself that I'd have a lousy time. Whatever.
But I got there, got into a cab and headed for the hotel ... and I looked out the window and fell in love. Seriously, i can still feel the "breath taken away" feeling that I first got when i looked at that crystal clear sky. I cannot even describe to you how it felt. It was like looking through a veil at the face of God ... the color of the sky and the cold of the air reached down and touched the center of my heart. When I got out of the cab I looked at the buildings and, again, at the sky and knew that it had me hooked. I knew that part of me belonged there and would always long to be there. And this was the first 30 minutes.
Hawaii hit me like that too but I think that Portland's call is stronger because it is possible. I could move there. I may move there. I love that thought. I love that possibility, whether or not it takes form. Except that it will. If I so will, it will.
Alone. With. Apart. Desire. Sweetheart. Love. Sex. Leaving.
My Teacher once tasked me with creating my own Book of Words. To take a bunch of words and look up their numerical value and keep track of it in a journal or something. 100 words, 100 values. I haven't looked up the words above this paragraph but I should. They have had great influence on my life of late.
Friend. Lover. Husband. Wife. Divorce. Pain. Waiting. Truth. Touch. Kiss. Hands. Lips. Sleep. Eat.
Value. Weight.
Possibility.
Chance.
Resurrection.
Take Care,
M
"If you would indeed behold the spirit of death, open your heart wide unto the body of life" The Prophet by Kahlil Gibran
