2003-01-22 - 4:19 p.m.
Thank you for your patience while on hold.
Hey, FUCK YOU for my patience while on hold. Patience is hard to come by for me and I could be using this precious resourse to wait for something really important ... like saving money, returning to Portland, finding a way into the job I want, school, love, a family. ALL of these things require a great deal of my meager patience stores but NO I am sitting here, on the phone, wasting my precious patience on Sprint mother-fucking PCS.
I HATE WAITING
Have you figured that out yet? I fucking hate waiting. I hate not being in control of when I get things. Only child thing, or spoiled brat thing, or pretty girl thing, or smart person thing, or impatient mother fucking person thing. I DON'T CARE.
Sometimes it's fun to refuse myself things, like a masochist beating myself. I giggle and blush and hold myself back for just 5 more minutes. But this is not fun.
Sometimes people tell me that they have a surprise for me ... and of course they won't tell me what it is. GAH! It burns like a splinter in my mind (that's what I said) untill I forget. And then the fuckers remind me!
That's the other thing. If I can forget that I'm waiting, I have all the patience in the world.
Sigh
M
"so I'm late for class because I had to run to the store to get peanut butter because all we had is ... is STINKIN' TUNA!!!
Lilo, why is this so important?
(name) controls the weather." Lilo and Stitch
